life...

I know I wrote about the ups and downs of life before, i just feel like it again.

I feel like sometimes my man and i just have these ups and downs.  We'll be so good for awhile and then we get in this rut of downs where we bicker all the time, can ever see eye to eye and just go through the motions.  I HATE THIS!!! i absolutely HATE fighting with him, HATE it! I feel like we've been that way this past week and we leave on a paradise cruise in 2 freaking days.  I know it'll be the time of our lives and we'll be fine, but I just want to figure the rest out and get over it.  I think a lot of my it is my fault, I over react and i hate that about myself, one of my worst flaws.  He has never given me any reason to not trust him or believe him.  He has a funny way of telling me he cares sometimes, he jokes a lot, but sometimes I just need him to flat out tell me that I'm the best thing for him.  Is it so hard?  i mean I don't think so, but then again I'm a girl.  but every girl needs to hear good things and boost their confidence, right?  Ugh the circles of it all...

If We Loved...

This song by Chuck Wicks might be one of my all time favorites.  It's not one I put on repeat and listen to it over and over, but when it comes on the shuffle I'll repeat it a time or two.  The lyrics are so powerful, and if only it could happen...

The prisons are empty
The homeless have houses
Nobody’s hungry
Nobody’s poor
Nobody’s judged by their faith or their color
Nobody’s wrong in this world without war
We buried our swords
We don’t fight anymore

You can’t imagine all the mountains we’d move if we loved
If we loved a little harder
Yea, there’s no telling all the walls we’d break through
If we loved
If we loved a little harder

Nobody’s lonely, used, or neglected
Children are cherished from the day that they’re born
Even a stranger’s never a stranger
No bars on the windows
No locks on our doors
Cuz we open our doors
Not afraid anymore

You can’t imagine all the mountains we’d move if we loved
If we loved a little harder
Yea, there’s no telling all the walls we’d break through
If we loved
If we loved a little harder

Just think of how much better off we’d be
If we open up our hearts
If we believe

You can’t imagine all the mountains we’d move if we loved
If we loved a little harder
Yea, there’s no telling all the walls we’d break through
If we loved
If we loved a little harder
Ohhhhh
If we loved
If we loved
If we loved a little harder





Just saw a proactiv commercial as I was posting this and it had Julianne Hough on it...If only those two were still together, they were so adorable! :) 

Life...

Geez...It's been almost a month since I've blogged...Life has been crazy!!!!

Here's a quick update...
-My wonderful boyfriend surprised me with a cruise for Christmas! (We leave in a week)
-I put in my notice for my job.
-I'm moving to North Liberty...and in with the boy! :)
-Of course there was Christmas...Great time!
-It's now a new year and I have yet to believe it and think about what all this year will bring...

I think those are the main things.  I will try to commit to writing more often and keep this (and my other blog) going.

Happy New Year! :)