Doubts

I have so many of them lately.  So much unknown, so many questions about if this is the right thing and if it'll all work out.  This aren't the thoughts and feelings I thought I'd be having this week after it all, but I feel even more distant from him, how can that be?  How can it be when the physical miles between us is now 0, the emotional distance is enormous?   I don't get it.  So many new things to figure out and work on, something he doesn't realize (or so I believe).  It's been one little thing after another, things I have let go but are just building in me and bubbling over right now.  I hate it and I want to fix it, but...I have to wait one more day, go figure.