...About how different things could be had one circumstance turned out differently? The past 4-5 years have had change after change, decision after decision. What would my life be like now if...
i was still with my ex? my sister didn't have a baby the summer after I graduated high school? i went to central right after high school like I had originally planned? i never went to st. ben's. i never went to central at all. i never left minnesota. i started teaching after my college graduation. never nannied. never met adam. never got back together with adam. t
The list could go on and on. The reality is, I decided not to go to Central right away and took a winding road to it. I am SO happy i'm not with my ex, SO happy. i'm glad i didn't teach, because I wouldn't be able to move, i'd be stuck in that job until june. as for never leaving minnesota, i'm still dealing with that. i miss seeing my girls. i want to be there to cheer them on, help them with their homework, have sleep overs at my apartment with them, and just spoil them in every way i can. i know i can still do some of this, if not all of it, but it's different being this far away. i will ALWAYS be torn by it. life is hard, it's rewarding but i feel like i'm always giving something up for something new, something i think is right. i can always hope they are the right decisions but only time will tell.
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