need a break...

I need to catch a break in life.  I know there are many people worse off than me, but for me, I could really use something.

I'm so torn with things with him, is it going to work or not.  Obviously no one knows if relationships will last, but ours has been so off and on and hard.  I thought things were going well, but just like it can fall to the ground again.  It's getting old, and hard.

I've also put a lot of work in lately applying for jobs.  I have completed applications for 7 jobs, with my application almost finished for another 4 jobs.  I'm hoping and praying that something will happen in the next week.  I can't give up hope just yet.  It's my final push to do something I want to do, to do more than I am now.  To make me feel like I'm doing something with my life.

It's frustrating.  I feel like my life is stuck in this place while all my friends are moving forward.  A year post grad and I still feel like I'm in a transition period.  Shouldn't that have been over already?

Praying, praying, praying!