life...

I know I wrote about the ups and downs of life before, i just feel like it again.

I feel like sometimes my man and i just have these ups and downs.  We'll be so good for awhile and then we get in this rut of downs where we bicker all the time, can ever see eye to eye and just go through the motions.  I HATE THIS!!! i absolutely HATE fighting with him, HATE it! I feel like we've been that way this past week and we leave on a paradise cruise in 2 freaking days.  I know it'll be the time of our lives and we'll be fine, but I just want to figure the rest out and get over it.  I think a lot of my it is my fault, I over react and i hate that about myself, one of my worst flaws.  He has never given me any reason to not trust him or believe him.  He has a funny way of telling me he cares sometimes, he jokes a lot, but sometimes I just need him to flat out tell me that I'm the best thing for him.  Is it so hard?  i mean I don't think so, but then again I'm a girl.  but every girl needs to hear good things and boost their confidence, right?  Ugh the circles of it all...